Holy Mother of God…

So, I was poking around on Pinterest and ignoring my adult/college responsibilities. As it turns out, there is a something in my life that I have been ignoring for far too long.

MY FREAKING BOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really don’t know what’s been going on with me lately. I think life just got in the way, and I haven’t had a chance to get back into the groove of writing. Due to this, unfortunately, it’s been almost a year since my last update on this blog and to y’all that have been looking forward to this.

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Between going back to school, working to keep food on the table, taking on an internship with a wonderful online literary magazine, and dealing with personal stuff, my book has been unceremoniously shoved onto the back-burner. I feel awful for that.

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However, I cannot apologize for going back to school. I needed this. I’m working my ass off, yes. I have no social life, yes. I fell asleep on the bus home and missed my stop today thus having to take a second trip, yes.

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With all of the above being said, I think it’s understandable that I have not had much opportunity to work on my book. Writing is freaking hard. Finding time for writing is absurdly hard. And, with everything I have left in the book, it takes a lot to get in the right mindset in order to write this out. The subject matter is dark, and so I have been struggling to find appropriate times to channel myself into such a dark mindset because it is hard to break myself out once I’ve started.

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Now that I’ve thoroughly bored all of you, I want to make a tentative promise. I want to complete this book more than anything. I want Warren to finally have his story told. Even Ty deserves that, too. I owe it to the both of them for so much inspiration over the years. I’ve gone through so many drafts with the boys, and it all started with a poorly written short chapter I wrote a year before trying to turn it into something else. I want to make a promise to you, my readers, as well as my fictional creations that I WILL finish this book. I have Christmas break coming up and no excuse to not get some work done. I am determined.

I have no idea how long it will take me before I am ready for the next round of editing. I have no idea when I’ll be able to even complete another chapter. However, I want you all to know that I will finish this. I will make it happen.

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But seriously. I will.

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I AM NOT JOKING!!!!!

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OH FOR FUCK’S SAKE!!!!!!!

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I will get this book done. I don’t know when, but I love every one of you who have stayed with me through all of this.

Back to procrastinating my paper due tomorrow.

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Getting There

So, I’m like…totally on social media now!

No, but seriously, I have joined the ranks of having an official Facebook page and Twitter account for my writing. You can join the ranks here and here respectively.

The reason I have created these links to the outside world is because I am, in fact, very close to being done with my book.

So close…

Yet, I am so far.

Now, seeing as I am as close to finishing this project as I have ever been, I am beginning preparations to publish. The easiest way would be to self-publish, so I am examining that route. The journey has begun and soon I will begin deleting the chapters that are currently available on this blog.

Hey! Calm down! It’s okay, I promise. I will continue to post about what is going on with the progress of the publishing. Not to mention, you’ll have an actual BOOK to read instead of clicking all these links and scrolling and whatnot.

Now, there will be some time before the deleting will commence, but you have been warned far in advanced. Read, my pretties, and know that soon you will have the whole story of Warren and his nightmare.

Now, if any of you need me, I will be over here doing writing…things…

Two Announcements

So, as I’m sure you know, I didn’t quite make due on my promise to post a new chapter on my birthday. The wonderful woman in my life decided to throw a surprise party for me that I had no idea about (thus, a very successful surprise indeed with quite a lot of swearing on my part). Since then, I’ve been very busy with life in general whether it be work, looking for work, or avoiding work. Then, whenever I sat down to write, I mostly got nothing other than a few ideas here and there about things that will happen later in the book.

The frustration has been real.

All of that being said, I want to announce two very important things.

The first is that I have an ending.

That’s right. I know how this God-forsaken book is going to end. I was so excited when it hit me that I wanted to exact my rights as an American adult and have a glass of wine in celebration, but I have been informed that driving is not a good place to do that. Instead, I settled for crying to myself in pure joy after I parked and steadfastly ignoring the stares.

Secondly…

(There was a second announcement, and now I’m too stubborn to change the post to reflect the fact that I forgot. Please enjoy these relatively unrelated announcements instead of my original plan.)

I’m seriously considering self-publishing.

There’s a lot of stuff going on in politics right now, am I right?

My cat is healing up wonderfully from her spaying.

I thoroughly believe no one can “win” Monopoly. You just bankrupt people until they rage quit.

I’m getting new glasses that will make me feel even more at one with Hyde from That’s 70’s Show.

Sleep is a wonderful, necessary thing.

Betta fish are awesome to watch.

Life is expensive.

(I still can’t remember, so I’m going to assume that one of these announcements were relevant. If you need me, I’ll be over here typing and getting nowhere.)

A Present

As many of you know, today is my birthday.

Not only that, it’s my 21st.

But, instead of going out and getting completely wasted (like I could afford it…), I have decided that I will get some hardcore writing done today. I’m thinking either late tonight or tomorrow, I will have the new chapter ready to post. It’s been a little while since I’ve been able to take a crack at it, but life is starting to settle down a little (knocks frantically on wood).

All that being said, I will see you all soon with my newest chapter.

(Seriously, wish me luck…)

Taking It Slow

Hi, everyone. So, I am still hard at work with editing and writing for this story. I am determined to keep this going at a steady pace because you (and Warren) deserve closure.

However, my head is a little jumbled thanks to some new medications my doctor has put me on. It’s a bit difficult to concentrate. (In a weird way, it’s giving me a bit of inspiration for another chapter…)

I promise that I will not go a year without posting another chapter, but it might be a little while before the next one goes up, considering it needs a lot of work and my brain is full of a cloudy haze while I’m adjusting.

I love you all for hanging in there with me. I feel like I have so much encouragement to see this through to the end, and it makes me incredibly happy that people care about this story even when I deserted it for so long.

I am making progress with the next chapter, but there is a lot of work to be done. I will post my next chapter as soon as humanly possible. For now, I am off to the editing corner to try and make sense of my gibberish.

A Warning to my Readers

So, as I’m sure you’ve noticed, this story’s (working) title is Nothing but a Scary Story. Warren, being the main character, is going to have some stuff happen to him.

I feel the need to warn you that from this point on, the story will be taking a darker turn. Considering this is the Internet, I will censor some parts (for the sake of remaining political), but not everything will be removed from the story. Otherwise, there would be nothing to show you. This story will be examining the processes of developing Stockholm Syndrome and the obsessions of a stalker. If you want a lighter version, allow me to point you in the right direction.

If you feel that you would rather not read the story that is about to ensue (as it may be triggering to some), I am sorry and grateful that I had you for a reader thus far.

If you choose to continue, I hope you enjoy the read.

As always, criticism is welcomed and encouraged.

With that being said–

The Endless Waiting

Stephen King wrote (in his memoir on writing) that “The scariest moment is always just before you start.”

I believe this can be applied to more than just beginning a story. It can be at the start of editing, the start of a relationship,  the start of a chapter of your life, or–

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Any way, the point I am trying to make is that I am truly sorry about this nearly year-long wait in between posts. I have experienced a lot of new starts this year, and editing has be pushed to a dark recess of my mind. As has this story, unfortunately.

I love Warren. Warren is probably one of my favorite characters I have ever written. He has been very patient with me through all of the terrible stuff I do to him, and through this year in limbo as he rots on my flash drive.

I hate that I have put this off so long. I feel that I have put this off almost too long, and I’ll continue this only for it to not be good enough. In this, I am challenging Stephen King. The scariest moment is, in fact, when you start again.

With this in mind, I will be continuing the editing process. I will post the next chapter as soon as humanly possible, and I will just have to continue from there.

I sincerely apologize for the waiting that I have put any of you through, and I am glad to have people that actually care enough to read my writing. I thank you, and Warren thanks you.